Spring, Summer, and the Seconds In-between

“I am still learning.” Michelangelo

I feel like Spring has flashed by me in a blur. Somewhere between the melting of snow and the flowering of plants, life happened, and I’m not sure where I was or what I was doing.  Ok, I know where I was and what I was doing, but I am having a hard time believing that it is mid-June already.

In case you are wondering what is new with the world of Jessica Swagman (fashion) or what is new in the world of Jessica Swagman (person), here’s a little update. Keep in mind, both worlds (the person and the business) are inseparable and my life is my business.

I rarely admit this and I abhor saying it, but I can’t do it all. Yes, most days I believe I am Superman, but every once in a while I have a moment where I am brought to my knees with the realization that I’m just human. To me, failure is anything that isn’t part of my plan…

Jessica Swagman (fashion) has been plodding along slowly. Building a company is exhausting but building a fashion design company has been arduous.

Juggling two companies has been both exhilarating and tiring. With my event planning company growing exponentially, it means that all of my attention is on keeping up with the growth. This leaves little time to spend on my fashion company, and when I do have a moment, I focus on the lack of growth. Neither productive nor fair.

Lately, I have been trying to look at ways to grow the selection of items without overextending the company, figuring out what is working and what is not, and restructuring some big components (ie: manufacturing).

Sewing the garments takes a lot of time, and during certain months (April – September), I am unable to do it myself. This means having someone else do it, and finding someone who has the talent and efficiency is a lot harder than you’d think.

So, what does this mean for the next collection? Well, the Fall 2016 collection has been designed, but unless I can find the manpower to help with the sewing and manufacturing, it will have to wait. Disappointing, undoubtedly. But success takes time, sometimes years. And that’s ok… I have to keep reminding myself that that’s ok.

Jessica Swagman (person) is doing ok. No, really, I am. Every day brings a new lesson and a new challenge. Education costs money and sometimes that means I learn something by making a mistake. As long as I learn, it’s not a waste. And after 31 years, I am still learning.

Yes, that’s right, another year older. I’m officially in my 30’s, not just flirting on the edge of them. I feel the same, except I think I care even less what people think of me and I’m even more unapologetically, yet tactfully, honest. I actually like getting older, but maybe it’s because I still look like I’m 13 (one of the reasons for the new bangs, it ages me at least 3 years).

So here’s to another year, another day, of learning, growing, and having faith in the journey.

Jessica Swagman

Jessica Swagman

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Jessica Swagman

Jessica Swagman

Jessica Swagman

Photos: New Years with my mom, February trip to Vancouver, My friend’s cocktail party,  Skiing in Colorado, Holland’s Tulip Time, Mothers Day.

Before I Turn 30

Dear me, I'm thirty!

Oh wait, I already turned 30 today….

Before you read any further, let me just tell you that the following post will be filled with sarcasm.

Did you notice that there are all these lists for when you turn 30?
30 Things To Do Before You Turn 30.
30 Things You Should Know Before You Turn 30.
30 Things To Accomplish Before Turning 30.
30 Life Skills To Master Before You Turn 30

Blah blah blah.

Quite frankly, I would really like to take all of those lists and shove them somewhere unmentionable 30 times.

Last month, I was reading some of these lists and I realized that they are completely idiotic.

I mean, really?
Jump out of a plane or jump off a bridge.
Read at least 4 books.
Learn how to sew.
Run a marathon. Or at least a 5k.
Learn how to fix a flat tire.

These are just some of the things I’ve read on these lists. I thought they were jokes at first. I wish they were.

So, before I turn 30, I’m supposed to jump off a bridge? I clearly remember my parents telling me not to jump off a bridge even if everyone else was. So now peer pressure and being a sheep is cool? I can never keep track of this stuff. That’s probably why I was never and will never be cool.

But in all seriousness, when did a number, an age, become something to measure our life against? When did we decide that there are things we must experience before we turn 21, 25, or 30? As if once we turn 30, it is no longer acceptable to learn how to sew or read 4 books. Really, 4 books? Such a random number. And when did we start measuring our worth on what we have to do/see/know by a certain age instead of measuring our worth based on who we are as a person and how we treat others?

Yes, those “bucket lists” might be fun for some people. I can see them being a riot if you were in your early twenties and you and your girlfriends made a hilarious game out of it. However, by the time we turn 30, I would like to think perhaps we can just be happy with growing older… and not feeling like we have to accomplish a list before our next birthday.

So here’s to 30. Here’s to all the things I choose to do, choose not to do, and choose not to care about before I turn 31.


PS: Here are my responses to those above items:
Jump out of a plane or jump off a bridge. Nailed it! I’m assuming a playground bridge counts. I’m counting it regardless.
Read at least 4 books. Really? 4 books? I read 4 books at once while doing one armed push ups. Next!
Learn how to sew. Ha! No comment.
Run a marathon. Or at least a 5k. Does a Netflix marathon count? Actually, at this point in my life, I’ve run tens of thousands of miles on my own. No need to actually pay someone to let me do what I have been doing free for years.
Learn how to fix a flat tire. Speed Dial: AAA. Really though, I can change a flat tire. But fix one? Maybe not.

PPS: As my Birthday gift to you (yes, usually you are supposed to give me a gift, but I’m feeling especially generous in my 30’s), I’m giving you 30% off everything in the store! You’re welcome. Happy Birthday To ME!

Birthday Sale